Hit a Bit of a Shag….
Thursday, August 30, 2012 For those of you new to this blog, you may want to start at the very first entry (Why I Named My Blog I Should Have Had 10 of You) and work your way forward. This is a journey in progress…Thanks and welcome!
To continue on with my fairly open approach regarding our adoption and fertility struggles, the latest development is that I had a SHG test on Monday. It kind of hurt and I have a pretty big tolerance for pain. The specialist (aka “Tressel”) wanted me to have this test so they could check to make sure that my uterus is okay after the miscarriage and that the procedure I had to remove the baby (D&C) did not harm my uterus. He wants to make sure the oven is okay before we try again. My female OB actually did the test. I love my OB. A lot of my friends now go to her as well. Once you meet her, you love her. She is humorous, and more importantly, very fast. If the Energizer bunny and Claire from Modern Family had a baby, it would be my OB. As I am lying on the table, she tells me to feel free to look at the large flat screen TV so I can watch what she is doing. Nooooooooo thank you. I was doing everything in my power to ignore what was going on until my OB said, “Let me just flip her cervix…” During this ongoing pain, my OB says, “Is it pinching? Can I adjust it in any way?” -[Short pause of silence by me as I count the dots on the ceiling]-My OB answers her own question, “Well, if it is not pinching and the pain is because you have a ginormous speculum in your vah-jay-jay with a balloon in your uterus, then there’s nothing I can do about that.” Ha. Love her. She makes me laugh every time. I just thought of it as a taste of labor pains. Then she goes on, “You know, I actually have people apologize to me for, like, being at the end of their period during this procedure. Or when people apologize during a pap smear for being on their period. Please. I deliver babies for a living. Do you think a little spotting or blood is going to bother me?”
After she is done, she shows me an area of my uterus on the screen. She said that a lesion would look more like a hook and that she thinks this is just some superficial layer shedding of my uterus due to the end of my menstrual cycle. “No big deal.” From what I have roughly learned as a layperson in the past few days, a D&C can damage the lining of your uterus and cause you to be unable to carry a child. However, my OB said she did not feel it was damaged (or that it was a lesion or polyp) and did not require surgery. It was just a “shaggy uterus”. Yay! I felt pretty good. The last test was done. As I am getting dressed I hear, and yet another reason I love her, “See you soon for a first trimester work-up!” As I left, I got the images and medical records to take to Tressel.
The next day, I got an email from Tressel’s nurse. She is pleasant and sweet as always. Nurse Sunshine. She provided me with my new pill and shot schedule BUT Tressel would like to re-do the uterine test in a month because my uterus is “shaggy”. Damn. Never did I think that “shaggy” would suddenly be a word to cause me some stress. I mean, let’s admit it. When you think of shaggy, you think of stoner, Scooby Doo’s Shaggy. How can anyone be stressed by repeatedly hearing shaggy? To boot, that test hurt and now Tressel is doing it. Why do doctors that have to see you naked have to be so handsome? There should be some sort of law against that, no? Why do you think I have a female OB?
Anyway, we have hit a bit of a snag….or rather, a bit of a shag. I asked her if I should be concerned and she said not to stress until they tell me to. Easier said than done. For now, the schedule is this: The shots begin in about ten (10) days and then the “monthly beast” arrives (see prior posts to catch up on my lingo). I will then have another SHG test to re-check the lining of the uterus, this time by Tressel. IF it looks okay, then it is ON. If the oven is damaged, well, hmmmm. Another speed bump. I would have to have surgery to repair it and then see how that looks after I recover. Tressel wants everything to proceed for now unless the oven appears damaged in about three (3) weeks. This nine year journey has taken yet another new twist in unfamiliar territory.
I would be lying if I said I am not a bit worried or stressed. It does not help the stress level to wait almost a month to see how the ole’ oven looks. I know what will be, will be. I continue to believe that we are being protected and that if we cannot have children, there is a reason that I may just not understand right now. It brings a temporary tear to my eye at the moment to think that after three (3) adoption agencies, multiple medical specialists, nine years, one miscarriage [and a partridge in a pear tree] that now I could possibly be, well, damaged by the miscarriage. It is not really something I want to add to my fertility resume.
I have ordered my shots and pills. The silver lining is that our insurance MAY cover those (let’s all say a silent prayer to the patron saint of insurance coverage). Another nice development is that my father has sent me two very nice and unprompted texts. One read, “Your [late] mom will help you through this.” and “Love u.” Highly unusual from one of the two boobs (see prior posts) but greatly appreciated.
For now, we will proceed with everything until the oven test in a few weeks which will determine if it is a go or yet another detour. There truly are bigger problems in life. We have our health, our jobs, our home, our friends, our family. It will all be okay no matter what happens. I have to have faith that everything happens for a reason. Maybe our baby wants to be born at a particular time of year. Who knows? We have been through a lot and it is just another bit of a “shag” on this very long journey. In the meantime, on to more important matters. College football is upon us. GO BUCKS! Thanks for reading, sharing, emailing, texting, etc. Your support does not go unnoticed.
Until next time, socks (aka xoxo according to my spellcheck).
Originally Published: Thursday, August 30, 2012
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